Slo Ride

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So. We actually got our puppy. You know I am totally insane. A puppy just makes you feel like the world is a good place. Until it pees and poops all over the floor and it reminds you that the world is also sometimes crappy. Now all my limited energy and focus is divided between Clay and the new baby Slo. A boy. A 7lb. baby boy Slo. A perfect name for a Bassett hound I think. Last night he woke up every few hours and cried. I removed him from his crate, took him out to pee and held him until he fell back to sleep. At which time I replaced him in his crate.

This is exactly like having a newborn without the breastfeeding. But I think the fatigue is good for me. I am both annoyed and exhausted combined with elated. That’s parenthood right? I just started to think well maybe I will live and Kelly always wanted a puppy. I said No they are too much work. Now he’s here and my mind is not focused on cancer. It is just focused on all the things I need to do today. Or the things I am happy about today.

I am very happy that my children will soon be done school. I like summer. I like their company. I even like being bored and hot with them. I am thrilled to not be on chemo. It is amazing to me that this treatment seems to be working. I am still tired and sore but it is getting better. I am looking forward to the graduations. Alec from high school. The twins from 8th grade. They are all looking forward. Bailey is doing a week of horse back riding camp. A week of vacation bible school. Jesse might go to Scotland to be with his grandmother and aunt. Alec is finishing a physics class at CCP and working. The twins are going to hippie survival camp in Virginia, for a week or 2. But mostly they will be with me. And mostly we hang out with Lhianna and Clarence by the pool. This is going to be nice to not be on chemo. That’s my favorite part.

Dr. Dan Gottlieb does a column im the Monday Inquirer. While I was in Santa Fe he interviewed me. It will be in there tomorrow. I am looking forward to it…I think. He interviewed me when I was in a really good place. So who knows what it says. And I really did not know what was going to happen with the new treatment. So it was just pure joy based on nothing but the spirit of God.I was not/am not banking my happiness on my treatment working. I am really still here just doing the one day at a time. The kids are loving the puppy. We are just looking forward to moving. Oh yeah we are moving. Our friends Megan and David from Circle are moving to the New York area. They are letting us live in their house for the next couple years. It is a very big 5 bedroom 1 1/2 bathrooms. Its across from a nice park/playground. It is in South Philly close to everything. Bailey could walk to school. The twins and Jesse can take the subway, which is very fast. Alec will be at college. We are in love with this house and it is next door to my friend Abbie. It is right behind Alys. 1 block from Ruthie. And three blocks from Heidi. That’s a good start.We are moving August 25th. My plan is to not be there. I get so tired. I think that is good way to do it. I am not looking forward to the daunting task of packing up a home we have lived in for 4 years.But that is a story I can’t discuss. Too stressful.

Just for today I am a little sore and tired. Thanks to everyone who has cooked this week. Thanks to Toni and her family who are giving us refurbished laptops for the twins. And thanks to anyone who has voted for me for best of the blogs. There is one lady out there who is really serious about it. She scared me. You don’t have to vote..I’m good. I am doing this for my own peace of mind and yours. I love you all. I will be trying to do the puppy thing this week. Wish me luck.

8 Responses to “Slo Ride”

  1. leah says:

    aww i’m so happy, well first things first i’m so0o happy that the estrogen blockers are working, second the new puppy! oh i hope you love him as much as i love mine! although mine is almost a year now and 60 pounds! third the kids, i’m always thrilled with anything they do, they are such a great bunch! fourth, you are moving close to me too! and fifth, the park has a closed in area that used to be a basketball court, you can let your puppy run around in there!

    hey when is your birthday? i had a dream about you last night and you said it was october 31, i know it’s not halloween or at least i think it’s not LOL
    i love you!
    ~leah

  2. debi says:

    How wonderful to read this happy positive post. Yup, nothing like puppy poo to make you forget everything. It feels so good to hear all of the things going on in your life. The new house sounds perfect. I know, I hate moving too. I loved being pregnant during any big moves. I can unpack all day but packing up seems to never end. Sounds like your kids have some great things going on this summer. This post and the sound of 3 grandsons laughing and screaming from the next room makes me oh so happy.Bless you.

  3. Carolyn says:

    Lovely post again. I’m glad you’re still feeling good about your treatment and I hope the move isn’t too stressful for you. (And I hope I’m not the one who scared you?) Take care.

  4. Andrea says:

    Carolyn, you are NOT the one who scared me. It was the other lady. I don’t really get her blog. Yours is awesome. I loved the pics of the shoes over the wires. And I loved the ones of your daughters shoes. No I just meant winning that award is not even what this online journal is about for me. I t doesn’t matter to me as much as just being honest. Letting people know there is Life after cancer diagnosis. Even a stage 4 diagnosis. I just want to leave behind my words, my thoughts, a dialog. I think a blog award would be cool but only if it happened organically. I am not going to beg for people to “vote” for me. Although I am winning:) I am just doing this blog thing to keep my sanity. And spread the love. And btw the puppy/toddler/cancer thing is way way too much. But I think I love the chaos. Go figure.

  5. Renee Khan says:

    Andrea:

    I’m happy for you about everything. (excluding cancer)

    How are you feeling. Is your medication helping the pain.

    Take care.

    Love Renee

    p.s. My mother is from Aberdeen, Scotland.

  6. Michelle Wienke says:

    Hi Andrea-
    You are moving right along-and doing it feeling well-I am so happy for you-regarding the puppy-have you tried putting an old school alarm clock (with the loud ticking) in with the puppy at night? I remember that we used to do that with our puppies as kids and the ticking somehow reminded them of their mother (only not as furry and warm!! lol)…..also a water bottle with the blankets in the crate may help too-hopefully within a few nights Slo will be all settled in and sleeping through the night-along with all of you!!
    Blessings and wishes for a wonderful painfree week!!
    Michelle

  7. Julie says:

    I’ll have to look at the other blogs to figure out which one you are talking about. I think you are the greatest 🙂 Please give the puppy’s tummy a rub for me.

  8. Carolyn says:

    Andrea… thanks for the reply. I’m not sure who the “other” lady was, but I’m sorry she scared you. I totally understand what you mean about the award and only wanting it “organically”. The few “vote for me” posts I wrote felt weird and unnatural, so I stopped. Especially after visiting your blog. I hope you know I wasn’t trying to throw sympathy votes your way. I perceive you to be a strong and feisty woman who isn’t interested in anybody’s pity. I hope it came through that I was only trying to direct some positive energy and prayers in your direction. Although you are handling it well, you do have stage 4 cancer and I believe anything I can do to send good energy your way couldn’t hurt. So… from all the way up here in Canada, positive thoughts for you, you family and your health are in the wind and on their way to you.