“Hos-piss” by Tucker Collins

Hospice

A word with all the powers of a magnet

Drawing things together

Somethings are shunned and wish to be repelled

But they always return

Others are accepted easily

But can never come back

Everything attracted has something in common

Power to express emotions

Love

Pain

Fear

Last wishes-like fire-are warm

But too much fire surrounding one self becomes

The source of more love

The source of more pain

The source of more fear

The smoke becomes a heavy blanket

Smothering its starter

To reduce the burden a stand must be made

One of courage where friends may be hurt

You can piss out the fire

But you cant piss out the pain

Great difficulty lies on the path where you try to be kind and loving

But sacrifices must be made

To live the rest of ones days with only the closest people to their heart.

22 Responses to ““Hos-piss” by Tucker Collins”

  1. Donna says:

    Tucker
    The heart is the place where God resides and you speak from that place. Blessed be…with much love, many prayers and heartfelt compassion.
    Donna in N. California

  2. Mary Beth says:

    Amazing, truly amazing … you have a wonderful way of expressing feelings and emotions. I can feel the angst and strength within your words … you are so gifted! I am grateful that you shared another part of you with us.

  3. Ruthie says:

    Tucker,
    You are one highly talented and sensitive young man. Eloquently and beautifully said, you agree with your mother and stand behind her decision 100%. How blessed she is to have a loving son who will help to protect her.

    Wishing you a peaceful night,
    Ruthie from California

  4. toni g says:

    You surely “get it” young man as do your siblings. May you all be enveloped by the loving arms of your Mother as they have reached out to you on this earth, so shall she be embracing you from her eternal place in your hearts.

  5. shayna and jahna says:

    tucker, i am so glad you have an outlet for your feelings in poetry. I know that this is so hard. Please know that we love you so much and that we will always be here for you.
    shayna

  6. leah says:

    Tucker, you are awesome!
    ~leah

  7. Renee Khan says:

    Tucker your poetry must (and I’m sure it is) be a prescious gift to your Mom. Hold on tight Tucker.

    Love Renee

  8. Gift of Green says:

    Tucker, you are a poet. What an awesome thing to be.

  9. Tucker says:

    Thank you everyone for your kind words,
    and i’m glad to share my poetry with you.

  10. Chrissy(Jenny Ball's sister) says:

    Tucker,

    WOW!!!!!! You are an amazing writer. We all wanted to say that we are thinking of you and your family. God will be with you all as you travel down this difficult journey. If any of you need ANYTHING just say it and we will be there. (Jenny can get in touch with us) You and your family should spend every minute together….forget the outside world that will all still be there….you must live in the now!!!! Give mommy lots of hugs and kisses.
    Thinking of you
    Chrissy, Patrick, Troy, Memaw, Pop Pop Donny, and Nana & (the doggies)

  11. Richelle says:

    Tucker,
    Your poems are such an inspiration to all who are priveleged enough to read them. Perhaps you would enter them at http://www.poetry.com for others to appreciate. Cash prizes are awarded daily and an annual cash prize as well, those awards pale in comparision to the joy that your mom has won from reading your work I am sure of.

    God Bless you Tucker.

    Richelle – Machesney Park, IL

  12. caro says:

    i hope to one day raise sons that dare to write and share poetry, as well, tucker. thank you so much for sharing. thinking of you and your entire family.

  13. Donna Arnold says:

    Tucker:
    What a beautiful being you are…your soul is so amazing!!! You share from deep within….you are a GIFT to the world your mom made for us all to have part of!!!! Write on, son, write on!!!! I love you all….Donna in SC

  14. Rebecca says:

    Tucker, I’m glad you shared this here.

  15. debi says:

    so much said here. so much. i pray people will let you have this time in peace. you have a real gift.

  16. mikey says:

    tucker i gotta say you have a talent with your words that pulls you in and envelopes you with your vision. it’s been a while but i miss you all.

  17. Lulu says:

    That is an incredibly moving poem. You have a real talent Lx

  18. lizz says:

    like i said… amazed.

  19. ruthie says:

    gahh!!! you got me all choked up, kid.
    fantastic.
    big squeeze,
    ruthie

  20. Art Bucher says:

    Hey, I got the “Non-sequiturs” poem, but then it disappeared, so I had to comment here instead. Interesting concept: to want to be known and critiqued for flaws as well as for the beauty of one’s poetry. Your poem reminded me of a practice of many Japanese pottery makers and bonsai growers. The potters and gardeners value most those pots and trees that show a flaw: a broken branch, a chipped edge. Some people like to think that the artists put the flaws there on purpose. I’m one of those who think that they appear because the artist, no matter how perfected his or her art form, is also flawed. When they do appear, the artists sees themselves in the art, and values it all the more. Other people do too. The flaw also provides a contrast. The smooth glaze around the chipped edge appears smoother. The life around the broken branch appears greener. OK back to your poem. I liked how the first 4 lines rhythmically contained ten syllables each, then after that the structure seems to dissemble: 12 syllables, 14 syllables, 16 syllables. It’s like the poem itself starts smooth and then breaks off into bits; but broadening, regular bits, like bigger and bigger slices of bread. That’s a beautiful style. -Art

  21. Amy says:

    Tucker,

    Thank you for this poem. Your words are words of honesty. I know EXACTLY what you are saying and where you are coming from. When my Mom was in Hos-piss, she had friends in and out and finally as a family we said enough is enough. Many friends got angry, and I struggled with being “kind and loving” but they all had their time with her and it was now OUR private family time in her last final days to be with her.

    I wish you strength, love and understanding. Be by your Mom’s side as much as you can. Talk to her when she cannot any longer communicate with you. She can hear you.

    Namaste,
    Amy

  22. Hasani Allen says:

    Tucker i’m sorry to here about your mother, from Hasani