Be careful what you ask for…

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Yesterday was the hardest day in quite a while. I had been looking for secrets or things I had forgotten while packing over the last week and not finding much. I wanted to remember the Andrea before cancer. The one I fell in love with. The one I changed my entire life for. She did cancer with grace. But let me tell you she did life… I was in awe. Yesterday I found what I was looking for. A love letter here, a picture there, marriage vows… I wept for hours. In moving I will be saying good bye, though my fondest memories are not even in this house. They lie in a crappy little 3 bedroom row home on oakdale street. I pulled it all back together in time for clay to get home with his loving girl friday (Jenny). I had the good fortune of talking with two amazing friends who continue to help me keep it all in perspective. And the boys are always there as well. Today I am In love with the world and all its possibilities. Thanks for being here.

Be well
Kelly

22 Responses to “Be careful what you ask for…”

  1. Your family is in my heart here in Massachusetts.

  2. joshua says:

    treasure chest, dude.

  3. Mary says:

    Kelly, you are amazing and I am very happy that you found those things! I will be in for a tattoo soon with some friends!

  4. Stephanie N says:

    I’m so happy for you that you found those things, Kelly.

  5. Rebecca says:

    Kelly,

    We’re thinking about you and the kids. I hope the move and the start of the school year go smoothly for all of you.

    All the best,
    Rebecca & Jesse

    PS- we have some photos from our Philly trip- if you’d like copies, let me know

  6. that girl says:

    I’m so glad you are finding these!

  7. Wendy says:

    Kelly,

    I am thinking of you and praying for you as you move and deal with all the transitions that come with a new home and the start of school. You’ve been on my mind a lot. I really wish I was there to watch Clay. The boys are dying to meet “Baby Clay” (even though he is almost the size of Dante!) Your mom mentioned that Clay is in size 4Ts. I have a bunch that I can send out to you. Email me your new address. Love you and sending BIG HUGS, Wendy

  8. Someone who cares says:

    Kelly you are an inspiration to me and god forbid anything should happen to me I want my husband to be like you !

  9. Karen says:

    Kelly, I am so happy you found those things and had the chance to reflect on them.

  10. debi says:

    Kelly I love your heart. You are so strong yet so tender. In my prayers you are, deb

  11. Madness says:

    Kelly
    I met you and Andrea last Saturday, I stumbled on your blog and spent a tear filled weekend reading it. Now I cant get the words together to tell you how amazing you, Andrea and your family are.
    I look forward to following your blog.
    Love
    Madness

  12. Donna Arnold says:

    Hi Kelly:
    What a a treasure trove you found! It is so refreshing to feel your emotions and thoughts in your posts!!! I can only “ditto” what all the others have said!!! I wish you much happiness in these fondest of memories, of Andrea’s legacy, and in your future….you are awesome, dude!!! Hugs and love to you all….Donna in SC

  13. Lo says:

    BEAUTIFUL!
    Lo

  14. Jess says:

    Kelly.

    I want to attempt to make a poster (I work in graphic design) for you, and each one of the kids, in memorial of Andrea.

    I was browsing the Flickr account Andrea had linked on the website, and noticed a great deal of the sets are private. It’d be wonderful if you could either contact me for my Flickr information (to make the photos viewable to me) or make the photos viewable for the public.

    If not, please let me know, as I’ll attempt to make the posters out of the public photos.

  15. Katie says:

    Hi Kelly,

    Glad to hear you found those things that take you back to treasured times.
    I hope you don’t mind me asking but why do you have to move at such a hard time?? Seems tough. I hope it goes smoothly and you like your new place xx

  16. Renee Khan says:

    Kelly, you are so amazing. I am glad that you found your letter, picture, and vows. Hold on to everything you need to. You and the kids are going to make it through.

    Love doesn’t die Kelly.

    Renee

  17. bb says:

    Kelly

    You are wonderful! I really think you should start writing a book about all of this. I think you could really help people. You and your family are so real and so honest. I dont know about anybody else but I am intrigued with this blog and your actual life story. You should start writing it down as soon as possible.

    Best wishes and good luck with your move!

    BB

  18. The bad hippie says:

    kel,
    finally got my internet and new computer (new to me!) all set up. i’ve got a blog that i’ve been trying to get written for a while typed up, but i can’t get into the blog thingy to type it in and send it to you. what am i doing wrong? call me.
    nay

  19. Linda, Palm Harbor, FL says:

    Hi Kelly,
    I know how hard it is to be going through the ups and downs of the loss of a loved one. The good times will come to you in waves and your memory of Andrea will prevail. You are a very strong man and I wish you much joy and comfort in the days, weeks, and months to come. Keep strong and continue to keep the Lord in your life every day. He pulls us all through the good and bad times. God Bless you Kelly and all your family.

  20. Maura says:

    Kelly

    Just wondering how the twins and Bailey are doing since Alec left for school & they themselves are getting ready for their respective new schools?

    When are you all moving and can you give us the address?

    GOD BLESS~

    ~Maura~

  21. ruthiez says:

    wow! finally back in civilization: grrr…french keyboard:
    i miss you all very much.
    i love you all.
    you are with me always
    je sui fatigue
    xxxooo
    ruthie

  22. Avery Jones says:

    Kelly thank you for opening your heart with us. I just found out that my beloved uncle has stage 3 lung cancer and no hope for surgery. Right now all we have is positive thought, love and hope. Your site gives me hope.

    Be strong and sometimes just be.

    http://underthesheets-shhh.blogspot.com/